Losing the feeling of feeling unique.

the rest of the school year, i fought on, trying to find some happiness to keep a light burning inside me.

nothing.

i got a boyfriend, [actually, this was my third one.]and i was so in love.
but i didn't want him to have a girlfriend like me.
i broke up with him because i knew he deserved better.

it wasn't until late that summer that i found a sanctuary.

bring in The Jonas Brothers.
a family friend was already into them, right when It's About Time came out.
she told me about them.
i liked them.
of course, i was just a casual fan, i had already found a new favorite band, Tokio Hotel, and they weren't about to get bumped from that spot.

i saw how the JoBros were so free and fun, and happy.
it made me so jealous.
but in a good jealous way.
Joe was the best, with his neverending energy,
it cheered me up everytime i saw them.

there it is.. that little light i thought was lost forever..
sparking and renewing.

and once again, they made mainstream, and i saw them everywhere, and it got annoying.
at least i found the light in my heart, though.
i'm still a JB fan, but it's just not as special anymore, since they're so populr.

but, since then, i've been thinking of things that make me happy.
and whenever i'm down, with a slight chance of saving, i think of my happy thoughts;

~the darkchocolate dipped chocolate ice cream bars that come around one a year during summer,
~Tokio Hotel,
~Peter Pan,
~watching the little waves on a calm day at City Beach, and when you can see the seafloor at the peak of the itty bitty clear waves,
~the color purple,
~Jonas Brothers,
~blacklight raves,
~friends you can just talk to,
~taking pictures,
and many more.

what good days come :D

ENTER PRESENT DAY.